Well I haven’t posted in a while…no thanks to football season
I just wanna talk about something God has been dealing with me about for the past month to two months. My Heart!
I have been single for going on 10 months now. Which is the longest I’ve been single since I started HS. Now don’t get the idea that I’ve just dated a ton of girls because that’s not the case. I was in 2 long relationships during HS and college. But I promised God after my last relationship that I wasn’t going to date again until He brought me the woman He has planned for me! As you can imagine for someone who is used to being in a relationship its been an awkward and tough 10 months. God has given me patience to believe He has something incredible waiting on me! He’s also been there for me to lean on when I’ve felt lonely!
Well about a month and a half ago I began to grow very impatient. I thought something might’ve been in the works. So I was like Ok this is what God wants, Even though I hadn’t prayed about it. Well the next sunday at NewSpring the campus pastor got up and said “Were in such a rush sometimes and get caught up in the fast flow of life. I think God just wants us to Wait and listen to Him sometimes.” I immediately thought to myself “OK God, I know your speaking to me but is this situation what your really talking about.” Just so you know don’t question God..haha. Well I began to pray very seriously about it! The next week at church the message was on a lie of the devil. The lie was “just follow your heart.” The 3 main points were 1) God replace my heart. 2) God focus my heart..and 3) God break my heart. God spoke straight to me and said “Am I the central focus of your heart?” I can honestly say he wasn’t. I had my own motives controlling my heart and not what God wanted. Obviously God has different plans for me. At least at this point in my life.
So you may wonder where I’m at now?? Well my heart is completely focused on what God’s will for my life is. Not that I didnt want his will before, I just got distracted and selfish. I want God to break my heart everyday! I want Him to be the Focus of everything I do! In Acts 7:59-60 Stephen had a Heart like Christ even though he was being stoned to death! So the Motives of my heart are learning to know God and for Him to Focus my heart!

